Sunday, October 10, 2010

SoRRy2..

Dear diary,

For Him Only..plzz read..



I never wrote my true feeling in my blog and this is my first time i do so. I never feel regretfull like today in my whole life. I let my emotion take control of my mind. I burst my feeling and it didnt turn out so well by my partner. To be truth, i never fall in love before and this is my first time. I know this person when we are study together and we started as a friend. Honestly, i made up the first step coz i know that he will be something special in my life. At first in our relationship, we went through many barriers that made myself a true lover.

As our relationship entered 1 year, i started to feel uncofidence within myself. I always asked him what his true feeling toward me although I know very well the answer. I become unsafe and thought that his love is less and I want more and deep in my heart I know that is not true. He always love me, as always.

Today we fought again becoz he went to open house friend of him which was I'm looking forward to go and it made me so upset becoz he didnt invite me as always but went with his fellow friends. I know that this would happened as  i had some sort of instinct and becoz he didnt talked about the open house the whole day although we were together until he ended up by going with his firend. I became so mad and cried histerically and blame him so badly juz bcoz a small matter. I didnt know what really happened to me and why i did like this although my mind said no, dont do this, you just made the thing worst.!!

Now, I'm really sad and hungry as well. My mind cannot function very well and hopefully i didnt do bad stuff such hurting myself?? I miss him damn much and i really need to talk with him. I know he mad at me becoz i said bad stuff at him and I shouldnt do that. If you read this, i hope that you can forgive me. I know i said about my goodness towards you, but it just bcoz I want to pull an attention from you. I really didnt meant it and I hope that you will forget about what i said.

                           ~I REALLY2 LOVE YOU. DEEPLY INSIDE MY HEART.

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Sunday, October 10, 2010

SoRRy2..

Dear diary,

For Him Only..plzz read..



I never wrote my true feeling in my blog and this is my first time i do so. I never feel regretfull like today in my whole life. I let my emotion take control of my mind. I burst my feeling and it didnt turn out so well by my partner. To be truth, i never fall in love before and this is my first time. I know this person when we are study together and we started as a friend. Honestly, i made up the first step coz i know that he will be something special in my life. At first in our relationship, we went through many barriers that made myself a true lover.

As our relationship entered 1 year, i started to feel uncofidence within myself. I always asked him what his true feeling toward me although I know very well the answer. I become unsafe and thought that his love is less and I want more and deep in my heart I know that is not true. He always love me, as always.

Today we fought again becoz he went to open house friend of him which was I'm looking forward to go and it made me so upset becoz he didnt invite me as always but went with his fellow friends. I know that this would happened as  i had some sort of instinct and becoz he didnt talked about the open house the whole day although we were together until he ended up by going with his firend. I became so mad and cried histerically and blame him so badly juz bcoz a small matter. I didnt know what really happened to me and why i did like this although my mind said no, dont do this, you just made the thing worst.!!

Now, I'm really sad and hungry as well. My mind cannot function very well and hopefully i didnt do bad stuff such hurting myself?? I miss him damn much and i really need to talk with him. I know he mad at me becoz i said bad stuff at him and I shouldnt do that. If you read this, i hope that you can forgive me. I know i said about my goodness towards you, but it just bcoz I want to pull an attention from you. I really didnt meant it and I hope that you will forget about what i said.

                           ~I REALLY2 LOVE YOU. DEEPLY INSIDE MY HEART.

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